hi! i'm new here in gather... i would like to have friends here, because i dont have much in reality... well, even watching tv, dont have the time.. i'm a inactive member of lds, i was baptized when i'm 11 years old.

I'm 26 years old from philippines living in the city of Metro Manila... i feel like i drifted far from the church i love, i have 3 kids and i would like them  to enjoy the primary... as ive enjoy it even 1 year only, haha..

i started drifting away when i got pregnant after wedlock, my ex and i met in church, i know it sound confussing but it that's what we did... we fall from sin. I'm in the Young Women Presidency by that time, and getting my self in that situation make me really digrade myself and also heavenly father... since then when i visit the church i dont partake the  sacrament, i'm guilty i know..

I moved out of the house of my ex last Nov 10, 2007, 1 month after delivering my 3rd child... yes, i already have 3 cute gift from heavenly father and i'm struggling to make a life for them.. i havent have the bones to visit the  church now, but i know that i'm an lds and that won't change, ive been into vice's and i'm trying to remove them now before going back to church.. i want my children to grow close to heavenly father and let them enjoy the love of the members...

i'm currently broke now, i'm a high school graduate, but finding job here  is very hard for hs grad.. so i asked my previous job boss/friend to let me use her computer for me to have an online job.. and now i'm workin on it.. my kids stays with my mom now while i'm here in my friends house, i go home when i got money from encoding.. say.. weekly... i'm seeing my future to start over again and desperately love to spend my day with my kids, so i prayed heavenly father that give me a better future and help me decide on things..

i hope you guy's would accept me as i am.. i know i'm not rightoues, but please dont be far from me... i miss to read liahona and ensign.. i miss to be greeted inside the church... i miss the organization... and i love to get back again to church, but i just can't right now, i'm not able... but i hope soonest would be wonderfull...

if you want to know about me.,.. just be free to ask.. God bless us